a space

i live in a space.

i live in a space with walls.

i live in a space with walls i have built.

i live in a space with walls i have built so i can feel safe.

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i feel safe.

i feel safe because the walls are lofty.

i feel safe because the walls are lofty and strong.

i feel safe because the walls are lofty and strong and i NEED to feel safe.

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my space is small.

my space is small and works for me.

my space is small and works for me because it keeps me safe.

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i like my space.

i like my space because i feel safe.

i like my space because i feel safe TO BE ME.

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in my space i can be me.

in my space i can be me – THE TRUE ME.

in my space i can be me – THE TRUE ME with no pretense.

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in my space there is me.

in my space there is me and my boys.

in my space there is me and my boys and my Pee.

in my space there is me and my boys and my Pee and no other.

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in my space there are rules.

in my space there are rules to love.

in my space there are rules to love and be loved.

in my space there are rules to love and be loved and not judge.

in my space there are rules to love and be loved and not judge and to accept.

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to some this space may seem limiting.

to some this space may seem limiting and lonely.

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– I RESPOND –

the space and its walls keep away fear.

the space and its walls keep away fear and hurt.

the space and its walls keep away fear and hurt and untrustworthy souls.

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– BUT –

the walls have weaknesses.

the walls have cracks.

the walls are not impenetrable.

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– THE QUESTION REMAINS –

will the walls be destroyed?

will the walls be destroyed and another allowed to enter?

will the walls be destroyed and another allowed to enter the space?

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– THE ANSWER –

only time will tell

and

only HE knows who HE is.