let us ponder for a while…

it seems that awhile

is just that ~ ~ ~ awhile.

never anything more,

never anything less

which

makes me wonder ~ ~ ~

awhile can never be forever,

but

awhile is better….than never.

right?

cartography

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do i follow the map of reason

or

the hodgepodge of scribbles which blind my heart?

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~

~

~

some contrast…

~

some

would say

i wear my darkness well

~ too well ~

in fact…

this may very well be true

but

without

‘some’

darkness for contrast ~

how will one ever see

my light shine through?

~

~

who… will…

~

Who will be the one

with the courage to embark

on a journey

to lands still yet unknown?

To face the darkness

and

navigate the cracks

which lead

to a wide open door?

To surf the waves

~ the highs and lows ~

and

stand strong

like

a beacon

on the shore?

~

~

Who will be the one

with a fearless heart

and

the dedication

to walk

into

my

soul

&

stay

?

~

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Chandler, AZ – taken by Jordan at the Sheraton Wild Horse Pass

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time ~ life ~ time.

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i hate time.

it walks too slow

when i want it to run fast.

it runs too fast

when i want it to walk slow.

~

here in lies the conundrum…

time is life.

life is time.

what am i saying?

~

i hate my life?

~

time…..passing….

~

one month is almost over ~

another month is about to arrive ~

two more months will bring the end of a year ~

followed by a new one in which i hope to survive*….

~

it seems time is moving faster and faster

as each year keeps passing me by

and

i can not help but wonder ~

how many more years

will

‘my life’

supply?

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*authors note:  thrive may be used as an ‘optimistic substitute’

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…or…

~

sometimes

i stand outside of myself

wondering

what do other people see ~

do they read beneath the words i write

or

sit beside me while i dream?

~

can i be seen for the person i truly am

or

the person i want to be

or

do they only see what they choose to see

and

dismiss the isolated

parts

i strive to set free?

~

~

the answer

¿

minds forming questions

questions seeking answers

but

what do answers want?

~ ~ ~ quite a perplexing question ~ ~ ~

do answers want to be revealed?

or

do answers prefer a life of mystery?

I do not know

~ however ~

when I find an answer to this question,

I will certainly ask!

¿

¿

¿

a pinch

~

pinch

me

please

~

i need to know

i am not

sleeping

through

this

dream

~

October 9, 2014 at 5:25am

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looking beyond…

~

my beloved little ballerina

she has been spinning for decades ~

a colorful history

full of good

and

some bad.

~

perfect?

she is not ~

a few blemishes here,

a crack there.

~

yes, she is old

and

her beauty is fading,

but

can you see beyond her flaws?

can you accept who she is

and

the imperfections

which

embody the woman you see?

~

in spite of a crack, i only see  perfection

~