Posts tagged ‘pain’
to let go
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i need to purge these feelings
deep down inside ~
and
until i do,
they will eat me alive.
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a lesson learned
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i fear my heart has closed the door
and
thrown away the key…
i can no longer allow
anyone
to come
anywhere
close
to
me.
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one could say
i have always been rather transparent
and
open to a fault
but
ever since the day my heart was gouged,
i have kept the remaining scraps
locked away in a vault.
∞
i learned a lesson the day he turned away,
a lesson i will never forget…
there are places deep within oneself
best left untouched –
locked away –
until
one’s
death.
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i thought i had learned this lesson the last time. i was wrong. never, ever again. i cannot – i will not break anymore.
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enwrapped
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as
the sound of holiday cheer
begins to wield its tune,
i can feel myself enwrapped
in
a blustering cold blanket
of
~ blue ~
the return of too many memories
of those
i love
~ no longer here ~
and
the loneliness which taunts my heart
and
drowns my soul
in
tears
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lesson learned at a soccer game…
…
NEVER
wear
a floppy hat
while
walking
under stadium bleachers,
looking
at the ground
and
dreaming
and
thinking
of
~
~ words ~
~
to
write
…
BANG!
…
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why?
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why?
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why do we have to die?
family, friends, pets – why?
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why does death have to be a part of life?
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the pain, the sadness, the tears – why?
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why do those we love have to go away?
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why can’t they stay for one more day?
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one more day so we can say all that we need to say ~
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one last time ~
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a last “i am sorry”
a last “i thank you”
a last “i will miss you”
a last “i love you”
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the last “goodbye”
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why?
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please tell me why?
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to breathe
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if i had the wings of an eagle
i would soar across the sky ~ ~ ~
flying as fast as i could
~ never stopping ~
until i land at your feet.
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i would hold you close,
never let go,
dry your tears with rainbow kisses ~
then
lift you up,
whisk you far away
where only our lives
and
dreams
can
breathe
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judgement
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feelings sliced across my flesh
leaving regret for my eyes to see
revealing a picture for others
to judge and condemn
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the emotional bit
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it is
a tiny piece
of a bigger whole
but
it is
the largest piece
of this distorted soul
~
a piece which fuels
this soul to live,
is a piece
i wish
would not exist
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the cost of
ξ
it should cost nothing
but
can take everything
which
can lead to nothing
ξ
such a cruel twist of fate ~
don’t you think?
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because
~
what should cost nothing
can mean everything
ξ
~ none but the lonely heart ~
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a lonely heart
can feel the arms of sadness
and
tears of pain
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a lonely heart
can feel the breath of fear
and
the kiss of death
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a lonely heart
can choose
to feel nothing
or
a lonely heart
can to choose to feel something…
…
I ask the question ~ why ~
why
cannot
my lonely heart
choose to feel
with
a promise of salvation?
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inspired by Tchaikovsky and a lonely heart
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Six Romances Op. 6 6th Movement
‘None But The Lonely Heart”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PtIHBCuR-Q
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