Posts tagged ‘growing up’


any day can bring goodbye ~


let’s hold one another close


we touch the sky ~


before the wind blows…

May 20, 2015 at 12:08 pm 13 comments

my visionary


behind the scenes is his spotlight ~

where he brings his visions to life…

where his mind can run wild


a vast realm of possibilities


dreams ~

bringing impossibilities to light…



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this would be my boy



April 1, 2015 at 12:45 pm 17 comments

A letter….

My dearest Bill,

I wanted to thank you for our time spent yesterday. It was nice to have you with me while I was driving to work. I needed someone to talk to and you were there listening……I think. I mean, I could hear you responding to my conversation.

I know we discussed this, but I am still in disbelief that Jordy is 20. Can you believe it? Just yesterday you were lifting him onto your shoulders and goofing around. I have been thinking about the camping trips and road trips and movies. Oh my gosh, the movies. Can you believe he still has every ticket stub for every movie we ever went to? And the big 6′ Oscar display board that you carried down the Las Vegas strip on a very, very windy day (and cursing, might I add) just so we could ship it UPS to Jordan? It was your idea…..

Jordan is still the stubborn, silly and vivacious little boy he was, he is just now taller and he has a beard. Oh my, yes, a beard. A pretty impressive one, actually. Scary, I know but true. And he is doing so well at school. You would not believe what he has accomplished and the responsibilities he has been granted. Remember how you always tried to give him a job so he could make some money? And how he was never interested – too involved in his mind and movies? Well, he has been appointed the position of treasurer (youngest ever) of the largest student run organization on campus and – I hope you are sitting down – he is in charge of a five figure budget! He is overseeing all the money’s being spent on movie projects and he has to go to faculty and alumni events to raise money. Yes, our boy…..the one who could not sell his Boy Scout popcorn!!!!!

Oh Bill, I miss you. We miss you. I thought for sure you would be here for all of these moments. I know how much you were looking forward to the boys becoming young men so you could show them things and impart your knowledge of lessons you learned as a wild young man. I can assure you, neither one is wild, though Jordan finally did go out to a club on campus a few months back. To hear him tell the story, it sounded like ‘geeks go listening to music and do strange dancing’…. Believe me, and I know you know this, the kid’s dance moves are, well, let’s just say ‘scratch the beard’ is his signature move. (Don’t ask;)

I was thinking after our talk yesterday that you are just as much a part of my son as his father and I. We made him, but you were a part of his life for 12 years and they were not just ‘years’ – they were his formative years. Sometimes he says and does things that remind me of you. It is said we live on in our children, even after we are gone. Bill, you are doing just that in both Jordan and Peyton. I want you to know that they and I appreciate everything you gave them. Everything.

Okay, I really need to stop being the silly emotional mom (yes, I am crying, dammit), though I am certain you are getting quite a laugh at my expense. I will let you go now doing what it is you do. How is the ‘hammock hanging’ by the ocean treating you? Sick of fish tacos yet? Pee says hi. I know she misses you. You need not worry about payback in regards to taking care of Pee. We have gotten plenty of it and, now I am the one who wears the big ‘S’ for sucker on her back – just like you did.

Bill, we love you.

The boys, your little girl and Kimberly xoxo

ps: Please keep a watchful eye on our boys;)

January 24, 2015 at 7:12 pm 27 comments

an autobiography


many pairs of shoes

each a different story

chapters of a book

penned with hours of sweat and blood

a once upon a time life



opening nights, first tour, debuts, special events – just a few


December 30, 2014 at 2:57 pm 28 comments



on the cusp of a dream

~ looking forward ~

beyond the threshold

where passion commands

the instrument


the spirit

to breathe





once upon a time…



December 30, 2014 at 1:19 pm 13 comments



he would pour himself into a shot glass


drink his soul away ~

away from those he loved dearly


the world around him

~ everyday ~


he would bathe his spirit in a slow, slow burn ~

allowing the heat to dissolve his pain.

he did not care to live his life ~


to drown himself in shame.


there was nothing we could have done,

except stand by him


reluctantly watch




love a man with a spirit

so broken,

so conflicted


so despondently




December 18, 2014 at 4:30 pm 12 comments

Weekly Photo Challenge – Adventure!


roller coaster

The American Eagle at Six Flags Great America Gurnee, IL


There is ‘lots of adventure’ to be had in this photo.  Yes, it is a roller coaster and, yes, it is a big one at that – however the true adventure lies ‘behind’ the photo:

This was Jordan’s first ever job – as a media technician, aka a dude with a film camera…making money for the very first time!

Two weeks later – Jordan left home for college – 7 hours away.  What could be more of an adventure in life than going out into the world? or being on one’s own for the very first time?

or most importantly…embarking on one’s dreams?

Yes…lots of adventure in this photo…


September 5, 2014 at 4:54 pm 7 comments

the sky, the stars and wishes


each star in the sky

carries a bucket full of wishes


each night these buckets

overflow with hope


each morning these wishes

are launched

into the universe


they may reach their destiny


become the dreamer’s truth.




August 7, 2014 at 2:00 pm 17 comments

words4jp from your mom

you may be

a young man

on the cusp of being an adult,


in my heart,

you will



the baby

i held in my arms

in the beginning

not much has really changed…he still cooks

Jordy sleeping on his books

somethings never change…he still surrounds himself with bunches of magazines, newspapers, books…lots of stuff…

June 26, 2014 at 2:12 pm 12 comments

Weekly Pet Challenge – A big day for the Pee’s

No one leaves the house without Sydnee Pee’s seal of approval…

pee looking at pee

“Let me look at you Peeton – you must be dressed for success!”

first day of work

“Isn’t he just the cutest?  He looks just like me – woof woof !”

time to go

“Is it time to go to work now ?”

Yes, it was a big day in our house.  Peyton has gotten his very first job and Monday was his very first day of work.  It was a big moment for Peyton…and for Pee.  She takes her responsibilities as little sister very seriously.  She gave him the total once over – sniffed quite a bit then gave him a kiss.  When it came to time to go vroom vroom, she was ready to rock-n-roll.  She would have driven the car if she could…


June 24, 2014 at 11:16 am 28 comments

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