Posts tagged ‘fears’
a world of many
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this world is full of beating hearts
and
in the middle of them all
i stand ~
a no one amongst many
and
a someone to a few
and
always
wishing for another ~
who is
also
a no one searching for
another one
to be their someone ~
their only one
now
and
forever
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need directions ~ ~
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i am standing on the edge of my creation ~
a maelstrom of chaos and uncertainty.
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where does one go…
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step over the edge
and
free fall into the arms of chance…
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or
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run away………….toward nothingness?
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10 for Tuesday = ten word story #3
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“If I continue working with you,
it will destroy me.”
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a note: After having spent 10 years working for a company, established by my very, very best and closest friend, I recently left my place of employment. I gave all that I could to a business which gave me everything and after Bill’s death, it took more than I ever thought I had – to give – to run a business without the person whose life ‘was’ the business. Since the sale of the company, I continued to remain faithful to Bill’s vision but his ways and that of the new owner, though I knew there would be differences, could never be more opposite from one another. In the past half a year, I have been watching a slow death unfold in front of my eyes and I have decided I cannot go through losing Bill a second time.
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one more note: Please excuse my lack of attention when it comes to my time – my life – here. Yes, I am looking for a job and this is having to take priority, though I will say… I do need my WP family – I adore all of you.
the night air
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as nighttime touches my skin,
my mind fills with desire
~ each heartbeat fuels a need ~
to be touched,
to be held,
to be wanted
yet
the rhythm of my cries fall on deaf ears
~ always ~
on deaf ears
and
stagnant air
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enlightenment
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in darkness,
i have watched my reality disintegrate.
in light,
i choose to watch it grow.
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reaching ~ ~ ~ always
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in the dark of night,
i search for his eyes
with the hope
they are staring down
at me.
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i try to reconnect to a scent,
which brings
warmth and comfort
to a soul
which is struggling
to be.
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i listen for every timbre of sound
i can grasp,
such as a voice
or
the resounding echo
of his heart beat.
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i keep reaching
~ always reaching ~
for someone i can no longer touch,
though
i know he lives inside of me ~ ~ ~ ~
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last night
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in the darkness of my room,
i am cold and alone.
all is calm and quiet except the noises in my head ~
so many noises clamoring… relentlessly…
and
the worst voice of all
is
my own
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