three years

~

as another year passes,

i say goodbye…

again…

reliving the last days

before an unexpected farewell.

~

every moment is engraved

deep within my mind

&

my body still aches

with

each beat of my heart.

~

~

~

a decade passed

∫

ten birthdays,

two bar mitzvahs,

first jobs

&

concerts.

∫

sports and art expos,

a high school graduation,

driving a car

&

one off to college.

∫

dreams so desperately wished upon

have passed without her here ~ ~ ~

and

though i see her in their eyes

and

feel her in my heart,

the sadness of missing my mother will never fade

or

truly

ever

depart.

∫

a note to my neighbor

.

i do not know you

and

you do not know me.

our eyes have met a couple of times

but

words have never been exchanged.

i know you are troubled –

you keep to yourself.

i understand this need,

so

i keep my distance…..

.

you live across my driveway.

i see your house every single day.

we breathe the same air

and

we hear the same birds.

when i stand in my kitchen,

your red shades always stare at me

and

the old Ford Maverick smiles,

as i leave for work each day.

.

i have been thinking, as of late,

i have not seen you in a while.

no visitors stopping by

or

a trash can on the curb.

i know you are a very private person

but

being TOO alone can be a curse.

i worry.

.

.

i did not know you

and

you did not know me

but

if life had been different,

we may have been friends.

.

please know i wish you peace.

.

.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

.

.

voices

¦

hanging onto every word

which

falls

gently

from

the

sky

¦

the

cherished

voices

from

our

past

which

never leave our side

¦

¦

dusk in Lakemoor, IL

¦

what was once…

ß

ß

the naughty threesome

always hungry and goofy

my treasured goofballs

ß

ß

Wisconsin Dells, 2007

ß

ßill, Peyton and Jordan

a little note:  This is quite a wonderful picture – not because Bill and Peyton have a pretzel in their eye and Jordan was trying to hold a pretzel in his eye, failed and looked utterly goofy – no – it is a wonderful photo because #1.  Peyton had a grilling fork in his hand and #2.  Jordan had the Chicago Tribune movie section in his lap.  If there is one thing Bill did that was so very, very special, it was to encourage my boys’ passion – cooking, food and movies. & when the three were together, I could never tell who the grown up was……ever…

 

 

 

always…will

∞

∞

always looking

always thinking

always wishing

always missing

always

…

for

you

∞

4:45am

 ∞

 

Memorial Day – Remembering

∞

∞ ∞

∞

reflections of the past

their call to duty

so many lives… lost

we remember with honor

∞

∞ ∞

∞

March 19th

**

*

lots of flowing tears

giggles here and there

thoughtful walks with Pee

a day of memories

*

**

our Billiam
6/7/60 – 3/19/12

*

two years have come and gone

year three has just begun

***

unremitting

˜

two years have passed

the guilt still thrives

the pain still swells

you are missed terribly

∞

gone too soon

♦

♦

wishes and dreams embark

floating away to nowhere

loneliness and sadness ensue

lying in the ground

♦

♦