four weeks to forever

November 13, 2013 at 3:41 pm 25 comments


four weeks was all we had –

to catch up and to talk,

about the past, the present


a future that would never come.


for every ounce of fear i possessed,

she held on to a dream

for the only place

she had ever longed to go –

a place to rest,

to be at peace.


i knew deep inside,

she was right –

  what was best,


that ‘the monster’ she had been given

would swallow her whole –

take what little life

there was left.


i did all i could to be with her –

to capture each and every image

in my head.

to hear every word,

every giggle,

to touch her face


feel her breath.


four weeks to the day,

her final sentence had been announced.

she left my side

to seek her dream –

no longer lost


forever found.




Our four weeks began November 11, 2004


ended December 12, 2004

painted at 16

self portrait – age 16

Entry filed under: feelings, in memory of, life, love, memory, mother, Personal, poetry, prose, Relationships, thoughts. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , .

these nights the stare

25 Comments Add your own

  • 1. gita4elamats  |  November 13, 2013 at 4:03 pm

    Sorry for your loss, she was beautiful.

    • 2. words4jp  |  November 13, 2013 at 7:10 pm

      thanks – she was:)

  • 3. acuriousgal  |  November 13, 2013 at 5:09 pm

    Such a powerful poem for a beautiful soul that was lost. So sorry for your loss

    • 4. words4jp  |  November 13, 2013 at 7:10 pm

      thanks – i must say, she would have enjoyed your photos – she loved flowers – specifically house plants.

  • 5. Master's Slave  |  November 13, 2013 at 5:30 pm

    Men are fools.

    • 6. words4jp  |  November 13, 2013 at 5:37 pm

      I do agree with your statement 😉 however, this piece is not about time spent with a guy, but the last 4 weeks spent with my mother before she died of pancreatic cancer. I wish it was about some guy, because maybe my mom would still be here.

      Thank you for reading.

  • 7. angelswhisper2011  |  November 13, 2013 at 6:50 pm

    Very moving. I’m sorry for your loss 😦

    • 8. words4jp  |  November 13, 2013 at 7:09 pm

      thanks – it has been a while, but this time of year always brings back a lot of memories.

  • 9. Dom DiFrancesco  |  November 13, 2013 at 7:18 pm

    Beautiful poem and just as everyone else has said, I am sorry for your loss, but it is wonderful that she lives on through your words and memories.

  • 10. far but not away  |  November 19, 2013 at 12:38 am

    So I’ll say it in french: Je te présente toutes mes condoléances.
    I’ve been through it 7 years ago… ´No matter how old she was, a mother is a mother. Take care!


    • 11. far but not away  |  November 19, 2013 at 12:57 am

      We also had 4 weeks.. it ended on the 10th of october.

      • 12. words4jp  |  November 19, 2013 at 7:19 pm


    • 13. words4jp  |  November 19, 2013 at 7:18 pm

      Thank you – and my thoughts are with you, as well. They never stop being our mothers. I will always miss her. xx


  • 14. words4jp  |  November 11, 2014 at 7:55 pm

    Reblogged this on Words4jp's Blog and commented:

    It has been 10 years, yet it feels like it was yesterday.

  • 15. John W. Howell  |  November 11, 2014 at 8:16 pm

    All four of my wife and my parents were sudden except my dad and I was ten at the time. Sorry for your loss.

    • 16. words4jp  |  November 12, 2014 at 12:25 am

      Oh my. I am so sorry. xx

  • 17. hitandrun1964  |  November 11, 2014 at 8:29 pm

    So sorry Kim….

  • 18. InfiniteZip  |  November 11, 2014 at 8:32 pm

    I am truly sorry for your loss, I am sure she is watching you and so proud…your gift with words lets us know we all can feel the sorrow, and to send you peace and healing thoughts my friend.

    • 19. words4jp  |  November 12, 2014 at 12:24 am

      Thank you. I so appreciate your thoughts. And I take a lot of comfort in them. xx

  • 20. ladysighs  |  November 11, 2014 at 8:48 pm

    A sad poem yes, But really a beautiful one. I know about writing sad poems too. Somehow I want to turn the sadness into something lovely. Putting thoughts into words that express how one feels/felt. Words are words. But the arrangement is what is so powerful.

    • 21. words4jp  |  November 12, 2014 at 12:24 am

      Thank you;)

  • 22. reocochran  |  November 11, 2014 at 9:10 pm

    I love this piece of poetry, prose and art woven into a heartfelt story about friendship. The battle was ‘won’ by her reaching her dream of peace. So touching that my eyes are tearing up. You are a dear one.

    • 23. words4jp  |  November 12, 2014 at 12:23 am

      Thank you. Your words mean so much to me. xx

  • 24. bruisedbelly  |  November 11, 2014 at 10:30 pm

    This is a great piece of writing. Pulled from the deep within the heart and shared through fingers. Simply Beautiful!

    • 25. words4jp  |  November 12, 2014 at 12:28 am

      Thank you. xx


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