a losing battle
September 2, 2013 at 2:50 pm 19 comments
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my thoughts are loud –
and
pounding.
•
my scars are tight
and
burning.
•
I cannot sleep
but
lie with hopes of passing out.
•
my head is like a battlefield –
memories armed with bayonets
and
feelings bleeding from wounds
so deep,
i wish they would render me dead.
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Pamela Beckford | September 2, 2013 at 3:15 pm
Bad sleep patterns exist for soooo many women – thankfully, I only have it once in awhile now (age does have a few privileges I guess). And it is usually of my own making (caffeine too late in the day and a mind filled with anxiety).
I hope you get some sleep tonight – plus having your son home should help, right?
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merbear74 | September 2, 2013 at 3:33 pm
(Hugs)
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words4jp | September 2, 2013 at 8:20 pm
I am honored. Thank you so much;) xx
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Noora | September 2, 2013 at 6:47 pm
This was such a powerful read. Love and light to you! xx
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words4jp | September 2, 2013 at 8:18 pm
Thank you. xxxx
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Brian Hughes | September 2, 2013 at 6:49 pm
I know the feeling…
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words4jp | September 2, 2013 at 8:17 pm
Hi there. How have you been? I hope well. I am afraid I lose the same battle, day after day and night after night. I get angry at myself for allowing someone to have that much control over my feelings – my heart.
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Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart | September 2, 2013 at 7:47 pm
In touch with that, as well.
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words4jp | September 2, 2013 at 8:16 pm
It is a losing battle I am afraid.
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Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart | September 2, 2013 at 8:27 pm
Nope! We will not claim that!! Not us!! 😀
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words4jp | September 3, 2013 at 2:56 am
You have great optimism;)
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Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart | September 3, 2013 at 11:57 am
Faith in me, you and God. Trust me, I am there, too. But, we have to not give up. Big hugs. Much love.
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John W. Howell | September 2, 2013 at 9:28 pm
Man. You described my nights and put into words how I feel when I am there.
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aFrankAngle | September 4, 2013 at 1:04 pm
Be strong my friend … be strong.
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words4jp | September 4, 2013 at 1:43 pm
thank you;) you are so sweet. on a happier note – are you rooting for the Bearcats? I am – got a hat on my head right now:)
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aFrankAngle | September 4, 2013 at 1:52 pm
Absolutely … even considered driving to the game this weekend, but our Septembers are generally a bit too crazy. Hopefully it will be two in a row over the Big 10 … or as I say, the Big Can’t Count.
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bluesage63 | September 7, 2013 at 12:51 am
Hi, can so relate to this, strong words and imagery andwishing you a restful sleep tonight 🙂 peace,
teri
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words4jp | September 7, 2013 at 7:01 am
Thank you. Of course I am responding to your comment at 2 in the morning.
Maybe someday……