a losing battle

September 2, 2013 at 2:50 pm 19 comments


my thoughts are loud –



my scars are tight



I cannot sleep


lie with hopes of passing out.

my head is like a battlefield –

memories armed with bayonets


feelings bleeding from wounds

so deep,

i wish they would render me dead.


Entry filed under: depression, feelings, insomnia, love, memory, Personal, poetry, prose, Relationships, thoughts. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , .

Lots, lots, lots of loads of thanks the head, the heart

19 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Pamela Beckford  |  September 2, 2013 at 3:15 pm

    Bad sleep patterns exist for soooo many women – thankfully, I only have it once in awhile now (age does have a few privileges I guess). And it is usually of my own making (caffeine too late in the day and a mind filled with anxiety).

    I hope you get some sleep tonight – plus having your son home should help, right?

  • 2. merbear74  |  September 2, 2013 at 3:33 pm


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    • 4. words4jp  |  September 2, 2013 at 8:20 pm

      I am honored. Thank you so much;) xx

  • 5. Noora  |  September 2, 2013 at 6:47 pm

    This was such a powerful read. Love and light to you! xx

    • 6. words4jp  |  September 2, 2013 at 8:18 pm

      Thank you. xxxx

  • 7. Brian Hughes  |  September 2, 2013 at 6:49 pm

    I know the feeling…

    • 8. words4jp  |  September 2, 2013 at 8:17 pm

      Hi there. How have you been? I hope well. I am afraid I lose the same battle, day after day and night after night. I get angry at myself for allowing someone to have that much control over my feelings – my heart.

  • 9. Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart  |  September 2, 2013 at 7:47 pm

    In touch with that, as well.

    • 10. words4jp  |  September 2, 2013 at 8:16 pm

      It is a losing battle I am afraid.

      • 11. Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart  |  September 2, 2013 at 8:27 pm

        Nope! We will not claim that!! Not us!! 😀

      • 12. words4jp  |  September 3, 2013 at 2:56 am

        You have great optimism;)

      • 13. Skye @ TheSanctuaryofMyHeart  |  September 3, 2013 at 11:57 am

        Faith in me, you and God. Trust me, I am there, too. But, we have to not give up. Big hugs. Much love.

  • 14. John W. Howell  |  September 2, 2013 at 9:28 pm

    Man. You described my nights and put into words how I feel when I am there.

  • 15. aFrankAngle  |  September 4, 2013 at 1:04 pm

    Be strong my friend … be strong.

    • 16. words4jp  |  September 4, 2013 at 1:43 pm

      thank you;) you are so sweet. on a happier note – are you rooting for the Bearcats? I am – got a hat on my head right now:)

      • 17. aFrankAngle  |  September 4, 2013 at 1:52 pm

        Absolutely … even considered driving to the game this weekend, but our Septembers are generally a bit too crazy. Hopefully it will be two in a row over the Big 10 … or as I say, the Big Can’t Count.

  • 18. bluesage63  |  September 7, 2013 at 12:51 am

    Hi, can so relate to this, strong words and imagery andwishing you a restful sleep tonight 🙂 peace,

    • 19. words4jp  |  September 7, 2013 at 7:01 am

      Thank you. Of course I am responding to your comment at 2 in the morning.

      Maybe someday……


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